Amongst all of the boxes of the life we used to share
Forgotten like old promises and things that made me care
Packed away, you've got my heart, and it is yours to take
As long as you will promise not to tell me if it breaks
If tiny little fractures start to spread, and start to hurt
If dampened scarlet roses start to blossom through my shirt
If bandaids cannot mend the wound that tears my chest apart,
Well, I wonder if the slightest pang will echo in your heart
Little girls with Barbie dolls and sharpened pocketknives
And gentlemen that try to make them swoon with empty lies
Little boys with plastic toys, learning how to bleed
And bitches that will take from them everything they need
Could you try to take my hand, and lead me far from here?
Or lace my coffee with cocaine so I don't even feel the fear
The depression leaves me anxious, and sleaves stained with my blood
It's not too pretty when it dries
But I'm pretending that its mud
With my scars and fucked up family, I'm the modern teenage dream
Drug user, drunk, rape victim- you know, the modern teenage scene
(Touc
Your whispered sickness fills my lungs
I struggle under dancing tongues
A weight upon my shoulder blades
Pushed back, pushed down (Now I'm afraid)
(You'll like it, dear, please don't be scared,
The more it hurts the more I care,
What's on your mind, what do you see?)
I want you
Want you
TO KILL ME
I'm losing my mind
Or so I am told
You know I'm too young
But I've gotten so old
Whispering softly
That I'll be just fine
But this is life, no-
No one gets out alive
If I could take off my mask
And peel off my scars
Would it even be worth it?
(But I've gone too far)
I haven't decided
If I should give up
If I'm even worth saving
(I'm not good enough)
Each one is trying
To find a nice way
To tell me they don't know, no
That I won't be okay
I half remember
Though I never half knew
I watched you walk away...
Why don't I miss you?
The pills numb the feeling
They numb the pain
They numb the memory
...but I st
"I stopped eating the day I found out that not all the food in the world could ever fill the void of hungry longing that was kept inside me. The desire to be thin."